Category: Random Stuff

What a world, what a world

I hope this is working.  I’ve been locked out of this Web site nearly a month and couldn’t get back in.  I finally figured how to come in the back door and create a login place for myself.

It’s been a rough month or so, and I’ll be dealing with that here over time.  For now I’m just glad to be back in and able to post what I want.  I might even use this theme over on the Knitivity Web site as well, as it appears to work better.  We shall see…

Still A Bit Unwell

Ever since last Sunday, I’ve had gut issue.  Sunday night and much of Monday I was puking with some regularity.  Then whatever bug it was descended to my lower guy, providing interesting races to the toilet.  ‘Nuff said.

Monday I have to get a blood draw to check my kidney function before a CT Scan on Friday.  I had a regular annual follow-up scan a few weeks ago and they had questions.  Not sure what they saw, or thought they saw, but there were questions concerning a “soft tissue mass” in my upper abdomen, so they’re going in with contrast dye to see if they can figure it out.  And then a couple weeks after that I have to do a colonoscopy.  And between the scan and the ‘scopy I have to see the urologist for my annual visit there.  Oh joy, eh?

So I have doctor visits every week the next three weeks, which upsets me because they have large co-pays and they will take time out of my days when I should be tweaking the Web sites and dyeing yarn and making money.   I don’t need that much stress in my life.

And, I realize I will be 70 on my next birthday.  I don’t have a lot of birthdays left.  I don’t want to work until I die,  I want to have some time when I am confident my bills will be paid, I’ll have a place to live and food to eat, and access to things to actually DO.  There’s fairly little to do here, unless I want to visit yet another copy-cat strip mall and spend money I don’t have on things I don’t need.  I would much rather live closer into town with easy bus access to museums, life theater, and other activities in town. I supposed without a major benefactor to leave me a significant trust fund, I suppose I will likely die without doing any of that.

I’m not being morbid or maudlin, just recognizing that the sum of my life isn’t what I would have hope it could have been. Few people will miss me, and even fewer will notice I’m gone, when the time comes.  I’m mostly okay with that, since my whole life has been just that way.

But enough of that for now.  I need to get my crap together for a fairly early night so I can be well-rested for tomorrow, a work day for me.   Yarns to dye and sell, you know.

Better Today…?

After a night of trying to nap on the couch, waking every hour or so to eject whatever was in my stomach, I finally settled into a semi-comfortable position and slept almost 3 hours.  Whatever was blocking my lower system managed to unblock itself and I got some blessed relief.   And (for now, anyway), no urge to vomit with every cough or sneeze.

I’m still going to stick close to the house today (no long walk) just to ensure I don’t need the toilet on short notice. I can start reskeining the yarns and get things ready to ship later in the week.  I just need to go slowly and use caution with whatever I do today.

 

 

I am sick.

As if I needed more crap to worry about.  Shortly after supper last night, I got really bad pains in my abdomen, up below the diaphragm.  It felt like everything was swelling.

Long story short, I’ve only slept in fits and starts, interspersed with vomiting nothing much but fluid.  And I’ve not pooped since yesterday.  If I don’t get relief by tomorrow morning I’ll call the clinic.  In the meantime, it is all I can do to just sit here and moan.  And puke.  And look at random YouTube videos.  It hurts in my abdomen to get up for very long, and working the yarns does not feel like it will get done on time.